DIVA in Distress

Currently reading "Fall on your knees" by Anne MacDonald....

it's heartbreaking, breathing gets heavy in every page yet i can't wait to finish it......this is another treasure i was able to salvage under the dusty shelves on a book sale...

i wish to share the story, i would absolutely recommend it................

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
                                                                                              - Anais Nin

p.s. i would have placed here the pics of the boys (Billy, Paul, Zo, Miko, Rj) and all my favorite girls...but i don't know how to fill the page....but i equally treasure the friendship with my sincerest appreciation.... Love yah guys!!! Char!!

I'm running

running away from what has become of me.

I'm hiding

Hiding from the image my eyes made me see.

I can keep running till my legs start to hurt.

i can keep hiding till my heart no longer hurts.

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Char ka-drama ni Manang!!!!

You are my

World Map.

so close

yet

.........

very Far

....................................................

and this is the fine line between

 peanut butter

and

marmalade

Yes i am in love.......with a fictional character Mr. darcy from Pride and Prejudice..

Mr. Darcy: Miss Elizabeth. I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you... I had to see you. I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectations, the inferiority of your birth by rank and circumstance. All these things I am willing to put aside and ask you to end my agony.

Elizabeth Bennet: I don't understand.

Mr. Darcy: I love you.

( a scene in the rain from the movie Pride and Prejudice starring Kiera Knightly and Matthew Mcfadyen)

I can't seem to understand why i easily fall in love with men who only exists on the reel world...probably because there is something so dreamy about them or maybe i'm just a teenager who's abit to idealistic for her own good lol..

but whatever, i will forever be inlove with Darcy...he's just so ruggedly handsome and something is just so awkwardly romantic about him....but to get the misconception straight I am in love with the character not the actor...although that Matthew actor has got sumtin' sumtin' goin on lol....and yeah Colin Firth was absolutely lovely when he played the role  ...

ps my friends are in love with him too .lol

Last night until early this morning , i have been reminded of how long it has been since i've sat in one corner and read a book; i have totally outcasted myself from the literary realm(thanks to those who reminded me)....i miss the feeling of being confined in this different world were in you look at a life that sometimes you think to be to tragic or sometimes even better than your own....I wanna read, i wanna immerse myself in words that will beguile the most vulnerable part of my mind.

Literature is one of the most important highlights of civilization. i find so much refuge and solace in them. Writers, authors and even bloggers whom have had love affairs with words and literary expressions of self, imagination and art, i respect them deeply.

I'm gonna make sure that at least in a month i would get to read three books, or a verse from a sonnet or poems~~~ that's a new goal i'm setting for myself....and i EXPECT to succeed at it. I will let my spirit flee in the depths of the pages , lines and rhymes to feel life...ohh there is so much more to life!!!!

Two of my favorite lines from the movie Dead Poet's Society: a line of Robbin William's character(John Keating) he said "No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world. " and "We read and write poetry (literature) because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion"

Ya'll wanna come read with me????

The Day is Beautiful......

                                  That wonderful and intoxicating fragrance of 4 A.M

                                                 Ahhh Blissful life in a busy Day.

Good Morning Wednesday ..Good  Morning People...

                                           Rise and shine

We are all expected to do something right? Responsibilities, obligations, tasks needed to be done etc.... and most of the time we don't like it. We even tell ourselves that our family, our friends or even complete strangers expect things that are too much; something we are never capable of doing.

and, sometimes we give up because we feel so much pressure and we tell ourselves "oh it's probably ok for me to give up now because i was pushed to hard"~~trying to give justification that it's alright to quit. But is it possible for us to think that maybe things are expected of us because we are capable of reaching it or even surpass it? Coz if you try to think about it, all these things people expect us to be or to do ; they are not the culprit in the whole scenario; it could probably be us who antagonize ourselves because we underestimate the potential that we can utilize to better ourselves.

Now, i would like to look at all these expectations of other people on me as a motivational force ; you prove them right or wrong ~~~ it's like being on stage and the whole audience is waiting on you to miss a line or two so they can start throwing tomatoes at you......... i owe it to myself and i have expectations on myself as well , i am gonna try to develop myself so that next time if people would expect things from me, they would expect me to succeed and not to fail myself.

but as a reminder, people who truly love you expect great things from you because they have so much faith in what you could do and what you can achieve, but those who don't; are the ones holding the tomatoes......make them eat it!!!!!

ps. i wrote this coz i remembered a line in smallville; when chloe told clark that expectations shouldn't stop him from living life it's purpose is to make him move forward...it was something like that.. lolz

How about you? Do you have faith in what you can do?

i chose the klimt painting because i love every painting he does....

I AM

STUDIOUS

&

HUNGRY

WhAt CoUlD PoSsIbLy Go WrOnG?

There are alot of things constant in this world. All of us could be in search for the "ultimate" happiness which would probably be in different forms depending on our individual perspective of what happiness is; .... this might be a bold assumption on my part but i am convinced that it has always been there; only waiting on the choices we make day by day.

Unfortunately, the life of bliss isn't the only thing here  on earth to greet us, sadness, grief, desperation, frustrations and failures; comes along with the package. When were happy, it manifests in our actions, the things we say, it becomes obvious. It's like having all these energy and your body would find different outputs before you burst because of so much euphoria and bliss.

But when we're sad we have to deal with it as well......I am not sad right now just to get that clear..but i have always been overwhelmed with the resilience of man and how he tries to spring back, i mean we all have ways right?

me? when i'm sad i do karaoke, i dance , i read, i listen to music, i sleep , i shout, i daydream, i ask for advices  and lol i clean my room....gone were the days of emotional eating hehehehe.....i control my emotions, i don't let it control me...

How about you, how do you deal with it?

"Be nice to everyone" - yeah right!!! i don't think i can ever blame anyone who losses their cool especially when they are pushed to the limit. I've always told myself, "i have to be nice, i have to be patient, i can't say this and that" ~~and i have always believed in it because i would never want to affront anybody; but i'm alarmed by the rate of how my tolerance is slimming. I would never want these lines to become meaningless, and i don't want it to become a lie that i say to myself so that i could just tame my temper and not have a fit.

Well, i'm probably just babbling about it due to a certain incident this afternoon and the talk i had with the girls the other day; just made me think that some people take it to a different level this comedic self-enthrallment to a point that they sometimes fail to remember those poor civilians affected by their actions.

and What in the Cow's Name is the big deal with who's better or who's not, who knows the coolest person or who doesn't?Always trying to compete with somebody does not make anybody better or superior compared to others; i mean puh-lease give it a rest already!!!!

hehehehe im really sorry for this blog outburst..i didn't mean to be such a bitch ....but i can't help it....(geezzz i'm being nice again...)

P.S. if anyone is affected with this blog in any way maybe you feel the same sentiment as i do i tell you we can deal with this..but if you are in any way affected because you're guilty.... (I DON'T CARE) wahhhhhhhhh

 

I shun the unhealthy way

iv'e had enough, time to say no no no

because

ExCerCise

is absolutely good for you.

Do not be Tamad..

And live life the healthy route

just sharing.

hello people, kamusta?, i am in a very pensive mood (feel ko mag-munimuni), contemplating about the great deal of things i am hoping to do both long-term and short, bear with me, so here it goes.

• I'm an idealist and a romanticist i wish to achieve the emphasis of expressing my emotions in the most artful manner, in short i wanna be an actress (damgo damgo) ~~~stage actress ha..
• Going on to the extremes, i would wanna try to sky dive,i just wanna be daring for once bahala na if gravity would be sour with me...
• i wanna have a nude portrait of myself...(hahah pina-rose sa titanic) but that would probably be after 90 years of gym and tons of liposuction hahahah (rummaging for self-esteem kaau noh) joke..no really, i would really get one.
• i wanna get a degree, finish school, since i am a believer that education is something every person has the right to have and no one can take away.. 
• Be ultimately sexy charooosh!!! 
• Get married have kids. Own a house.
• Grow old fashionably......be a groovy grandma for short lol..
• Do something worthwhile for others who need support and help.
• Go backpacking around the world.
• Hopefully when i graduate i could help someone have good education too, like what my sister is doing.
• Make sure all those people who i truly care for would know that i do love them before i become a fertilizer.

That's basically all i could think of, siguro i'll add up more if something would pop out....so until then....chow!!!

just sharing